One of the biggest things that contributes to my overall joyfulness is that I rarely worry about things. I used to struggle big time with anxiety and depression. I was on medication for about 6 years for it and I usually attributed my happiness to being on meds. A year ago, before we started to conceive, I went off my medication due to risks involved with antidepressants and pregnancy. Somehow, I’m actually happier.
Somewhere along this path I’ve been walking on with the Lord, I gained true happiness. Medication or no medication, I have a joy that is deep within my soul and I always try to nurture it, so as to never loose it. As I said before, I rarely struggle with anxiety. I have learned to lean on the Lord, trust His timing, His plan, His purpose for my life.
Recently, with this whole home selling/home buying process, I’ve noticed some worrisome thoughts creeping back into my mind. I think it’s probably pretty natural to worry a bit when you are trying to sell your current home in order to buy another. There are a lot of factors that are involved, closing costs, home loan approval, showings, cleaning, signing of very important papers etc. etc. Any normal person would fret about some of these things. However, I don’t want my anxious thoughts to consume my time, my mind or my relationship with God. I don’t want to spend the majority of my days worrying that our home loan hasn’t been approved or that our windows aren’t clean enough for our next showing.
So I had a little time with Jesus this morning and I heard a very important lesson as I was reading in Matthew. We are to live like birds, with no cares, trusting that He will provide for our every last need, no matter what.