Dark before the morning

Before meeting David, one of my greatest fears was being in the woods, at night, alone. It’s so dark. So scary. So wild. 

I quickly learned that camping and spending time in the mountains is one of David’s greatest passions. If I wanted to spend more time with him on the weekends, I best be getting over my fears of being in the woods at night.

The first time I ever went camping with him, I practically had an anxiety attack as our campfire died down and we got ready to go to sleep. I was absolutely terrified. “what if Big Foot is out there? what if a bear comes? what if I have to get up to pee in the middle of the night and get lost? what if there’s a psycho hiding in the woods? it’s getting so dark…” I was seconds away from packing up and driving to a hotel in Estes Park, but David talked me off the ledge(thanks babe!). Thankfully, I was tired and fell asleep pretty quickly in my tent. I can’t believe that was almost 8 years ago. 

We camp about 10-15 times each summer and I must admit, I still get a little scared at night. Sometimes I’ll wake up at 3am for no reason…David will be fast asleep….and it’s just me. In the woods. At night. Alone. 

But, I have found the most beautiful reward after the night has passed: Alpenglo. Alpenglo is the most lovely, magical, wonderful thing about camping in the mountains. It’s when the sun just starts to peek above the horizon and casts it’s rays upon the highest peaks. Sometimes its pink and purple. Sometimes it’s fiery orange. Regardless of what color appears, it’s stunning. It only lasts for a minute or two, and it’s the first sign that the night is over and morning is here. It’s a wonderful reminder that the day is new, with all sorts of wonderful things to come!

I was driving home from a shoot in Vail last week and a song came on the radio by Josh Wilson that just hit me like a ton of bricks. Here are a few lyrics that really stuck out to me:

“because the pain that you’ve been feeling,
can’t compare to the joy that’s coming
oh, the pain that you’ve been feeling,
is just the dark before the morning”

“It’s just the dark before the morning”…that part particularly struck me. The darkness in life we experience is always trumped by the good God has to offer us. No matter how down we feel, how many bad things are happening, how disappointed we feel or depressed we are….God is bigger. He brings the morning with Him every day. He is faithful. He is good. And He is the source of my hope. 

Having that hope is such an awesome thing. It’s what keeps me happy and joyful every day. It’s what gives me perspective when things seem hard. Hope that my desire to become a mom will come true. Hope that struggles will lessen and my joy will increase. Hope that the morning will come soon. I absolutely love that He offers this to us. 

You will surely forget your trouble,
recalling it only as water gone by.
Life will be brighter than noonday,
and darkness will become like morning.
You will be secure, because there is hope;
you will look about and take your rest in safety
Job 11:16-18

This verse in Job might replace Romans 12:12 as my new favorite verse. Love it! =)


3 thoughts on “Dark before the morning

  1. That song brought me so much peace near the end of my dad's life…I pretty much bawled every time I heard it, because of how beautiful it is and how much I needed to hear that message. It reminded me that after the pain and suffering my dad went through, that he would awaken in eternity and the darkness he experienced would be long gone.


  2. This is a beautiful post Becky, and there's so much truth in it. I love your vulnerability and your perspective. The picture is beautiful too, is it yours?
    I fully believe that you'll see the sun very soon and I thank the Lord that we can have hope in him and that he is so near when we feel we are in a time of darkness. Love you friend. Still praying.


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