It was a morning with was no rushing around, no running out the door, no fretting about being late, no forgetting my coffee as I hurry to my car, no leaving the blinds closed all day because I don’t have time to open them, no rushed goodbye kisses or forgotten lunches.
Today is my first day back to the life I have grown to love and long for. It’s my first day back to just being a self-employed photographer. It’s a blessing that I took for granted for 4 years and now I have it back. My world feels normal again. I can breathe! I have time to do laundry and go to the gym. I’m going to make dinner tonight without having to worry about answering emails while my pot of water boils. I think after I post this blog, I’ll go read a book in the sunshine on my back patio. I could cry I’m so happy 🙂
I am so very grateful for that 2nd job that I took on almost a year ago. We paid off all my hospital bills with the help of that 2nd job. We paid for 2 IUIs with that 2nd job and even paid for a few home improvement projects too. I believe having that job literally saved my life and it gave me a deep appreciation for self-employment. It renewed my love for my photography business and brought me back to a place where I can truly say that I love what I do for a living.
I hardly have words to describe how I feel today. I feel whole again. I feel happier than I have been in the better part of a year. I feel free. And over all of it is a giant blanket of gratitude that this is my life. This is my life! Lucky me 🙂