Open Blinds

I had a perfect morning today. Curled up in my favorite comfy chair with a mug of hot coffee, I wrote in my journal, read my Bible, listened to the chirping of the birds outside and laughed as my cats obsessively watched them. I closed my eyes and felt the stillness of my home, I prayed and thanked God for his blessings. I felt the warmth of the sun coming in through the open blinds.

I loved how the shadow looked like a cross through the window. I felt like Jesus was saying “good morning!” šŸ™‚

It was a morning with was no rushing around, no running out the door, no fretting about being late, no forgetting my coffee as I hurry to my car, no leaving the blinds closed all day because I don’t have time to open them, no rushed goodbye kisses or forgotten lunches.

Today is my first day back to the life I have grown to love and long for. It’s my first day back to just being a self-employed photographer. It’s a blessing that I took for granted for 4 years and now I have it back. My world feels normal again. I can breathe! I have time to do laundry and go to the gym. I’m going to make dinner tonight without having to worry about answering emails while my pot of water boils. I think after I post this blog, I’ll go read a book in the sunshine on my back patio. I could cry I’m so happy šŸ™‚

I am so very grateful for that 2nd job that I took on almost a year ago. We paid off all my hospital bills with the help of that 2nd job. We paid for 2 IUIs with that 2nd job and even paid for a few home improvement projects too. I believe having that job literally saved my life and it gave me a deep appreciation for self-employment. It renewed my love for my photography business and brought me back to a place where I can truly say that I love what I do for a living.

I hardly have words to describe how I feel today. I feel whole again. I feel happier than I have been in the better part of a year. I feel free. And over all of it is a giant blanket of gratitude that this is my life. This is my life! Lucky me šŸ™‚

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8 thoughts on “Open Blinds

  1. What a beautiful post. I'm so glad you have a renewed love for your business and that you feel you can breathe again!
    That photo of your bible and the cross shadow coming in from the window is simply perfect and beautiful. So happy for you.

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  2. That sounds absolutely heavenly! I'm so happy for the blessings your second job provided, including giving you the peace that you are doing just what God wants you to be doing. You bless so many people through your work! Enjoy your time settling into your old (and new) routine! šŸ™‚

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  3. This post brought a huge peace to ME! I love when those moments come along that show you are right where you're supposed to be. Thanks for making me smile this morning. =)

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