I can say that it has nothing to do with our health or with fertility stuff. It has nothing to do with our family or friends. No one died and there were no tragic accidents. And for that, I am very very grateful! It’s something that very unexpectedly happened to David and I and to make along story short, it feels like we’re in deep water.
You know that feeling…the one where you just can’t quite seem to keep your head above the surface, except for a quick breath of air before the current drags you back under. You feel like you’re floundering in rough water and choppy seas. There’s no land in sight, no life boat, you don’t know which direction to go and you’re too tired to even attempt swimming. There’s nothing concrete that you can cling to. That’s where we are.
Although we don’t have much in the way of concrete things to cling to right now, we do have one thing we can cling to, which is better than any life boat or beach. We have the Lord Almighty. He has taken ahold of us and I know He will lift us out of these rough seas.
“He reached down from on high and took hold of me; he drew me our of deep waters.” Psalm 18:16
Though we might not be out of the deep water yet, I know He has us. God is in the business of redeeming ugly situations, of rescuing those in need of help. Does it always look the way we want it to? Nope. Does it sometimes get worse before it gets better? Yep. Our rescue hasn’t happened quite yet, but I am confident that our Rescuer is on his way.
Despite the floundering and feeling a bit beaten by crashing waves, I can feel Him moving right now. I don’t know what He’s doing, but He’s working. And that gives me peace and hope for things to come.
Just a couple verses after Psalm 18:16 in verse 19 it says, “He brought me out into a spacious place; he rescued me because he delighted in me.” I love that picture of being rescued and brought into a spacious place. I picture being lifted out of the depths and into a big open field of wildflowers. I just think it’s beautiful imagery. Not only does He rescue us, but He brings us into a better place. Amen to that!
Thankfully, we’re getting tiny glimpses of what that spacious place might looks like. I also mentioned in my last post that there was a good thing that happened as well and that we were hoping good would overcome bad and that good would win in the end. I like happy endings and silver linings. 🙂 Only time will tell, thanks a bunch for your prayers!