As we approach the one year mark of my ectopic pregnancy, I can’t help but to look back over these last 12 months and remark on what an intense year it’s been. August 2012-August 2013 has been one of the most challenging, amazing, wonderful, heartbreaking and life-changing 12 month periods David and I have ever had. In those 12 months we saw:
-A pregnancy that we knew about for almost 20 minutes. Then I almost died, then I was ok again. Then my lung collapsed and then I was ok again. Phew!
-Beautiful and rewarding travels together to amazing places
-A 3rd HSG
-3 more failed IUIs
-My sweet sister’s engagement and wedding (yay!)
-2 possible chemical pregnancies? (jury is still out on that…)
-David lost his job and then started a new (and better!) job.
-Random, unexpected moments of grief and healing
-A heck of a lot of free skiing 🙂
-A major year of growing for my photography business
-Relationship-changing moments with my dad and step-mom
-A bunch of doctors telling us we need to do IVF
Phew! Did I forget anything? Oh yes of course, a giant swarm of honeybees that took over our house somewhere in there too. How could I forget that?! Haha!
Goodness gracious, that’s a full 12 months. It’s been up and down, up and down the entire time. It’s been a year of extreme highs and extreme lows, without much middle ground in between. We haven’t had too many “average” weeks go by in the last year. I think my heart is ready for a little bit of average right about now.
I’m ready for 12 months of nothing. No big changes, no tragedies, no emotionally intense stuff, job changes or life-altering events. I just want 12 months of peaceful days. Peaceful days full of easy walks after dinner with the love of my life, quality time with our families, escapes to the mountains, coffee with friends, maybe a little more decorating and painting, and I’ll probably try out a few new recipes. And maybe, if we’re feeling really ambitious, we’ll buy a car somewhere in there (both of our cars are creeping up on 200,000 miles quickly! Eeek!). But that’s about as crazy as I want to get.
I just want a season in life where the waters are calm. Surely, that’s not too much to ask right?! 🙂