A year ago, I was pregnant and the closest I’ve ever come to seeing this dream realized. And today, I feel a million miles away.
I’m not sad, just reflective today. Reflecting about how off course our plans can get. And how hard life can be. And how you never know what’s around the corner. Life can change in an instant. With one doctor appointment, one phone call, one conversation. It can all change, just like that. The bulk of my grieving is behind me, the toughest of days are over and the worst of my pain have turned into memories. But those memories will be with me forever. I guess that’s not a bad thing. Because they remind me of how far I’ve come.
I guess in the end, I’m just happy to be alive. Happy to have gone through something unthinkably difficult and to have come out on the other side stronger. Not just stronger, but with a little extra measure of gratitude and appreciation. Thankful to have my happiness and this sweet little life that God has given me in tact. Happy to have a heart at peace.